So much...

This last week of classes, and then today's missions class, have really put me in a place of realizing how much my Lord still needs to do in my heart; how much he wants to do!

I've never really known what I want to do with my life, per-say, but I've known since I started really walking with Jesus that I wanted Him to be first in my life, wherever I might end up.

Lately I've really been struggling over "where to?" and "what to do!" Missions class is like torture because it's such a stinking amazing class about the mission field etc., but at the same time I don't know where I'm going!

Tommy pointed out something that was a blessing to me in "The Life of David" class as we were studying through 1 Samuel 13. He pointed out the way that Saul's impatience and inability to wait on the Lord resulted in him breaking the law and making and preparing a sacrifice to God by himself. It was a lack of faith. He saw the enemy troops coming and knew that there needed to be a sacrifice before the battle, but did not trust Samuel's promise that he would be there when he said he would be there. He took things into his own hands and performed the sacrifice himself, instead of waiting for Samuel to arrive. Tommy pointed this out, "Second only to suffering, waiting is one of the hardest things that a Christian will do. Also, only second to suffering, through waiting our Christian character is most established and built up."

So here I am then, trying to wait on the Lord. : ) It's stinking hard....but God is so good. He will always provide. He always has the best plans. He never lets us down. He always picks us up. He never forsakes us; never leaves us hanging. He's got the whole world in His hands... Right?

"Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God." Psalm 42:11

please keep me in prayer everyone; anyone. : D