Hatachi-sai
Today I am 20 years old...It seems there are so many different thoughts that persistently race through my mind when I think about how young I am and yet how much has commenced in these last few years. Yesterday before class, somehow my age was brought up. It was interesting because in talking about some of the things my life has consisted of in the past couple of years, I addressed an interesting point that I was almost consciously unaware of. I realized that the majority of my Christian walk now I've been in, or, as I am now, in relation with the Bible College. Nearly all of my Christian walk has been very sudden, very rapid exposure to things of ministry and Bible study. I think not to boast in this as though I have had so much to do with these perculiar facts, but reflecting back it's a blessing to see what God has done and is doing in my life. Right now I am reading a biography of George Muller, the missionary/orphan house director in 19th century England. Keeping a long story short, the detailing of this man's life and walk with God has been extremely encouraging to me in this past week or so. One way in which I have been most encouraged and on which I desire to speak, is in the aspect of God's calling and special equipping of his vessels. Muller is probably most known for his admirable reliance upon God for his every provision and refusal of popular tradition to receive income from mandatory tithes in the churches, but what stands out the most to me is the way that Muller so often had no idea what God was going to do next and yet maintained such a passionate faith in God's greater plan and provision. Seeing this and catching on to the trend of faith-building that God saw as such a priority in his life, Muller would often go into a place and, before making any commitments to the church or group, declare that if at any moment he felt called of God to leave and move on, that he would do so. Prearrangements would be set in place that he was an itinerent preacher unless otherwise called of God. Step by step the Lord would lead Muller to different paths and places, Muller often asking and seeking the Lord about what His will would be for staying or going to all kinds of different places and works. But the whole time, behind the scene, God had been preparing Muller for a life-work in ministering to Orphans and running an enormous orphanage. At times Muller would be without any kind of resources, down to the very last penny, but yet He would seek the Lord daily and be led in how to continue on without having to ask any support of man. His every need was cast upon the Lord and his every need was met. But not only his own needs, but the needs of hundreds of children at a time who he took care of. It truly is an amazing biography and has been quite timely in my own life as a reminder to trust God no matter what the situation. One thing though that stands out with all of this, are Muller's own words in letters, essentially saying: "don't attempt to immitate the work that God is doing here unless the Lord should specifically reveal His will to be so". Muller believed and understood that God gives special grace and faith to those vessels through which He wants to do things like He did with Muller. Muller knew it wasn't a matter of God always wanting to work in those ways, but saw God doing something unique and trusted that the Lord would see Him through to the end. Today is my 20th birthday. I have been tremendously blessed by the Lord in a great work He has done over the past 31/2 years since coming to know Him. I have seen the Lord do so much and am even now a Bible College teacher here in Okinawa. I am tremendously blessed, but what I want most to be known by others who should look into my life is this testimony; "it is not of him who wills, nor of him who runs, but of God who shows mercy." (Romans 9:16) This verse in it's context is speaking of an entirely different matter, but the principle it presents to me and which I desire to share is this: the things that God does in and through a life are NOT because of the great faith or faithfulness of that person. It is NOT because I am some righteous man that I am here teaching and encouraging brothers and sisters in Japan. As with Muller, the faith and grace that God has given me are a blessing, according to grace and not according to my works or my faithfulness. God has desired to make me unique and to lead me in a very different path than most. It has not been because I am a great man, but because God has simply desired to use me in such a way as He sees fit. He likewise blesses times of teaching and encouragement, the work that is being done here, simply because He has desired to pour out His grace. The only command that is to me a requirement coupled with His promises of abundant fruitfulness, is this, "Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me." (John 15:4) I have only this one admonition which is to me such a great promise. As long as I am abiding in Christ (standing in, making my home in, living in obedience to Christ) I know that God will do the work. He will be faithful to perform the awesome and the miraculous as well as provide the grace and faith and means to accomplish any and all things. As I have simply sought to abide in Christ; to be obedient to Him and live each day for and unto Him, He has done all the rest. And that's it. I pray that the rest of my life would maintain the same testimony and that a life lived simply for Christ each day would be the summation of any goals or plans I should set before myself. God has been so faithful, and I pray this next year, and even these next 20 years, would only be a testimony to the greatness of who God is.
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"So then it is not of him who wills, nor of him who runs, but of God who shows mercy."