
I don't know what exactly you wanted, but I figured you would at least like the last one. : )
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Currently reading Dostoevsky's The Brothers Karamazov, Andrew Murray's Full Life in Christ, might continue to get into Lee Strobel's Case for a Creator. I am amazed each day as I have very little planned, and yet my days never cease to be filled with something. Funny how all that works.
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It has been a blessing watching the Lord work. It appears that the Lord has decided to put all this China stuff into the realm of reality within this last week. I have this interesting thought..about God.
I feel as though at one moment I know Him. As I walk with my creator, I will sometimes sneak a curious glance at Him. Not the kind birthed from suspicion or uneasiness, but more out of intrigue, I think. I am intrigued with Him, the Sovereign King!...I must smile to myself in those times, as I quickly revert my eyes to what is before me. I think to myself, "Could all this be real?" But the thought is only present for a moment before I correct it with a better question. Ah yes, I've got it, a better question. "Why not?". hmm. Yes, I do think this one to be more fitting. "Why not?" Smiling to myself, out of the corner of my eye I can see my creator is smiling as well. His smiles are always better than mine. I'm not sure why; it's not so simple I think. There's a certain confidence in it. The whole thing, not just His smile, but the way He looks at things, the way He looks at me; yes, there is a certain confidence in it. He is sure in each step. I can't recall a time there was some kind of worry in his face. And here, now with some of the path ahead appearing obstructed and detoured, a whole new route perhaps in store, I see it again. I cannot help but want to be like Him. With such a quiet confidence. But that can't be all it is. No, I suppose there must be more. Yes, certainly so; for He is the creator, and if there's one thing I have learned from walking with Him, it is that He is unlike any other. Yes, there will always be more, hidden behind those eyes. hmm. I feel like now I know Him, but I am almost apprehensive as I begin to think at how much there is that I must not know. What is it? Where does it come from, this confidence? This love that is sure...hmm. Yes, so much more, for there is so much that I do not understand. But. But, I suppose I will just have to keep walking. Continue along this path with my Maker...his walks are always the best. I get to see Him smile...and, yes, there it is...that look, again there I see it. He is sure. Each step is sure. Not hurried. Not paced or anxious; of course not. But certainly not aimless. Never have I seen Him wander. Just that quiet, confident and sure expression alighting upon His face as He walks along. hmm. Yes, I think I have resolved it. With a quiet look again, I can't help but now be resolved. Yes, it will be His side that I will not depart from; His path that I will walk. There are so many things I do not understand about my Maker. So many questions about this path that He is walking, this path that I have now determined to actually be the path that He is "taking me" on...to who else should I go? For He alone has the words of eternal life...
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It's funny how all this works. To Him I secretly smile again; though it is no secret, I see now He has known each smile that has come across this face. I do not know if that is why He smiles, but I am sure He has seen each one, and am warmed at the thought of it...hmm, yes.. Just me, walking with such a sovereign/redeemer/savior/friend...and why not?
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Why not? : )